They say that if it's worth having it's worth fighting for, and that was proven to me, in my attempts to get this move done, I lost a van, the majority of my stuff, and said goodbye to a life I've known for years and the people I've loved, blood related and not. Things kept going wrong, like they typically do when they don't need to. But we made it here safely, and I've found that I was so many kinds of wrong when I ever thought of just saying I wanted to stay in Florida. The city I lived in was stifling, all tourist and traffic, and hot as it could get. It made me sick and hate life. Never once did I say "I love this place" because I didn't. I say it every day, I look out over the mountains and see the most beautiful of God's works I've seen before. The mountains rise in the distance, beautiful against morning mists that resemble clouds rising right from the ground beneath them, waking to begin their day, I live on the edge of a deep valley, and traffic is so light that two cars in a row is considered a traffic jam. I live on winding roads and quiet land, the world seems to stand still and I can breathe without taking in a deep breath of paper mill fumes. I feel like God has taken a weight off of my shoulders, and I realize now that I have been doing things for everyone else, and not a thing for me. I feel closer to god, and a little closer to Mammaw here, this is what I needed, I don't miss florida at all, I miss my family and friends, and I do plan on returning to Florida to visit upon occassion, but now I realize why Mammaw loved the mountains, the world always seems right when I wake up, things are simpler, and not so crazy. People help other people here, instead of ignoring other peoples' pain. Complete strangers reach out a helping hand to their neighbors (even if their closest neighbor lives a mile away) and the world seems to tilt back onto it's axis, and all seems right. Love thy neighbor, do good things, these are things Mammaw lived by, and I can see where she got it from. How can you not help people who need it when there is little help to be found outside of those around you? Well, it's late, and we're driving the ten or more miles into town to go shopping and get things set up. Hopefully the people who know me will now understand why I had to leave.